Define me.

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I didn't update for too long, well no one reads this journal anyway since I post nothing but crap.
I'll write how do I feel instead of screaming them out on somebody.
I hate Max from all my heart okay? and I wanted a moment of silence in fresh air. And the least thing I need was shit head being emo in the area I'm relaxing at. I was hearing the birds and smelling fresh air... it was a great mood for relaxing. And then they ruined it. AHHHHHHHH.
Okay fine they were SO bothering! Specially that emo shit face. >:o I told Ghalib that all what I need is at least 10 minutes of relaxation without no one around. I wanted to feel content but they were bothering me so badly. I told him to go~ just simply like that.. but all what he did is arguing with me like an old bag. when he wasted 10 other minutes of my time arguing with him about the fact that I'm not angry at him for talking to Max I'm just a little pissed because he ruined my relaxation moment.. WITH MAX. He went off.. and I was like: "FINALLY HE UNDERSTOOD!" But hohoho Max was sitting on the stairs next to my spots. So what Ghalib did is sitting with him and laughing. AHHHHHHHH that was getting me grumpy. >:T So they were sitting for 20 minutes there and being annoying. And Ghalib yelled saying: "ten minutes is overrr." But i was all like.. "NONE OF THEM WERE QUITE." AGHHH.

All what I say that I'm thankful for them to make my happy day grumpy, now I'm back to my usual mood.

If I were a month, I would be: November.

If I were a day of the week, I would be: Saturday.

If I were a time of day, I would be: Dawn.

If I were a planet, I would be: Uranus.

If I were a sea animal, I would be: Whale.

If I were a direction, I would be: North.

If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: Toilet.

If I were a liquid, I would be: PEE.

If I were a stone, I would be: Ruby.

If I were a tree, I would be: Lemon tree.

If I were a bird, I would be: Eagle.

If I were a tool, I would be: Razor.

If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Tulip.

If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Rainy storm.

If I were a mythical creature, I would be: Phoenix.

If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Guitar.

If I were an animal, I would be: Cat.

If I were a color, I would be: Orange.

If I were an emotion, I would be: Frustration.

If I were a vegetable, I would be: Carrot.

If I were a sound, I would be: Ville's voice.

If I were an element, I would be: Aqua.

If I were a car, I would be: None.

If I were a song, I would be: Bury me deep inside your heart.

If I were a time era, I would be: Never where.

If I were a book, I would be written by: Ville.

If I were a food, I would be: Pasta.

If I were a place, I would be: Hell.

If I were a taste, I would be: Sweet.

If I were a scent, I would be: Spring Rain on Wood.

If I were a word, I would be: Schizophrenic.

If I were a body part, I would be: Penis.

If I were a facial expression, I would be:  ";n;"

If I were a subject in school, I would be: Art.

If I were a cartoon character, I would be: Peter Griffin.

If I were a shape, I would be: Heartagram.

If I were a number, I would be: Twenty one.

If I were an item of clothing, I would be: Boxer.

If I were a piece of jewellery, I would be: Lavaliere.

If I were a clothing accessory, I would be: Arm wormer.

I'm so bored right now.
I feel like drawing on Tegaki E.
I'm so damn bored, me and Flo are talking about making babies, sounds cool.
Tests are so damn soon, I don't want them, I really don't. ;A;

p.s: I'm so proud of my pixel work; base by Cedars-Sloth.


Sammie and Muchlove are so in love; KEI DO YOU HEAR ME I DISLIKE ZAVVIE WITH SAMMIE OKAY? ♥

I'm listening to Digital Love by Daft Punk right now, the song is so touching. ;u;

Anyway, I'm going to rant in this entry about lairs and fakes.
That kind of people should get a life, they're just so freaking annoying. I always try hard to get good pictures of my ugly self to put them on sites, but they just steal some picture from photo bucket and upload them, and they're even so dumb to get a bigger image or even an image without a link on it. What a lame. and their excuses are so stupid, they expect real people to believe it. sdfds;
Lairs and those who fiction up some shit about their life or being just so stressed about a god damn pathetic reason. or those people who pretend like they are talking to the ghosts when it obviously  doesn't make any sense! Or when they say such awful excuses when they "can't" do what the hell they say. plus; when they turn all emotional and some shit, that aggravates me so bad because I'm the one who had such a hard life and I'm the one who have good reasons to be all emotional. But nooo; I'll never give up and sit in the corner and cry, crying will never help it! I have to work harder, to do what I love, to smile and see the bright sun every morning. Because I'm very sure that if I curved on my self and cry no one well be more damaged than I am. But when you're happy and laughing with friends, everyone gonna laugh with you.
Get over it emo fags who cut them selfs, no one will be hurt than you guys, and if you think that you're having hard lives pah-lease shut up and go cut you're wrists because I don't care, such losers.
and the most shocking part when some of your friends attend to be one of the people you loathe. Ahh so annoying!! My friend Max keeps lying to me a lot now. If you wanted me to count the lies it'll take all over my journal, and since my mother just came and screamed at me to go sleep I'm not going to write them. Anyhow; write now Max is faking that he's some guy names Seikoo I guess? he's such a dumb ass! Why he thinks I'm so stupid to believe him? I'm so much smarter than he think for god's sake. u_u;;
I'm done of his lies, I feel like giving him a slap on the face that he'll never wake up from. I just want to let my friends know.. that if they fiction some shit on me, I won't believe them anymore, they broke my trust. And it's not going to be easy to win it again.
They are so selfish by thinking of them selfs, killing them selfs is just a god damned lasting solution for a temporary problem. I can know if people were lying or not; first: The eyes, most of lairs avoid eye contact. Second: The smile, it sounds so fake. Third: the hands, lairs always cover their faces by their hand to hide the frustration signs on their faces. And many other reasons. "oshi-" And about my friends who're planning suicide.. I try to talk them once, twice... and one more time; after that I just get so pissed and don't give a shit about it anymore.. they say the no one cares about them anyway, well how the hell they want people to care about them if they're pushing people anyway??
"I don't know what the key to success, but the key to failure is to get everyone's satisfaction" Bill Cosby. I'm not looking after every emo pleasure, that's it, there's limits. and I'm done with it. Dear emo boy.. go keep your feelings inside and fucking smile to life because it's pretty, trust me, I won't bite you. n_n

I love Ville Valo, he's the only man who understands how do I feel when I'm really upset. I know that he don't know that I'm alive but I mean when he sings in some specific songs, I mean, I actually can feel what he's trying to say from his songs. and his beautiful voice... he just makes me feel like melting from his songs. He's so beautiful from the inside and the outside, he's so nice and sweet, and I'm sure that he loves each supporter and fan of him, because I'm very sure that he loves his fan, as much I love my watchers. ♪



Muchlove doodle ♥♥♥ n__n

What's more difficult than smiling and your tears on the verge of collapse.

What's more difficult than to laugh and you're screaming because of the wound inside.

What's more difficult than the people who traitors in the absence of you.

What's more difficult than loving someone after all what did they do to you.

What's more difficult than trying hard to forget what you loved in childhood.

What's more difficult than feeling regret when it's too late.

What's more difficult to build hope on something unknown.

What's more difficult to live in a cruel life.

What's more difficult to love someone who does not even know love.

What's more difficult to see all your dreams shatter in front of your eyes.

What's more difficult to wish for death from the severity of pain.

What's more difficult when time will force you to something you'd never imagine.

What's more difficult when destiny separates you from the one you love.

No journal today. ouo